"Stay with me"
and he said, "always"
Saturday, November 21, 2015
When I was about 10, I received a call from NKF (National Kidney Foundation) after a health check up in school. I was in the toilet when the call came through so I didn't actually talk to them, but my helper told me I had a call from NKF. And being paranoid me as usual, I spent the next few days in paranoia thinking that I had something wrong with my kidneys. I thought I had kidney failure or something bad from the health check up in school. I remember going to the windows and just looking out at the kids playing soccer in the field opposite my house and thinking "they're so lucky to be alive and well." I was so convinced that I was going to die hahahahhaa.
But I thought about it during the week amidst all the chaos happening in the world, each day is really a Gift. After reading all these shared Facebook statuses about the Parisians who survived the attack, I realised that life is so precious and fragile...here today, gone tomorrow. Really puts things into perspective for me. One of them wrote something along the lines of when she thought she was going to die, there was no anger, no hatred, just whispering I love you to every of her loved ones in her head. She just wanted to let everyone close to her know that she loved them.
I'm scared no doubt, that something like that might happen close to home. So i'm going to live like today's my last day. If I wake up tomorrow, I'll be super glad that I have another day with my loved ones and friends. I think that'll be an amazing way to live life, everything will be put into perspective and small petty things wont matter as much anymore.
But if today's my last day, or if I'm going to live like that...it means that I have to eat chicken nuggets everyday too. Dilemma.
Monday, November 9, 2015
A typical day of errand running would most likely consist of buying 80++ embroidery hoops and 100+ threads and other knick knacks like erasers because they keep disappearing, I found one under my pillow the other night. Im not kidding. I usually do work on my bed so sometimes whilst moving around the eraser might have slipped under my pillow. So I buy lots of erasers but it always seems to run out and they all disappear!
Maybe something like Toy Story, my room studio has a version Eraser Keshigomu Story, where all the erasers who were mistreated come together to plot revenge or to build an army so their strategy is to get all the erasers to go in hiding so that I will buy MORE erasers to feed their army. Holy shit, they're so smart!!!
The kind people at Aide De Camp probably knows how much I need to carry on a day to day basis for work. I run workshops so sometimes I need to lug all my thread supplies + embroidery hoops + scissors AND erasers, I end up carrying more than 3 tote bags. They've very kindly gifted me with one of their Nadine bag to use. So the other day I came home to this:
(image credit: adcbags.com)
This has been my everyday bag when I go for meetings or workshops since the day Aide De Camp sent me this gift. Check the rest of the collection here: http://www.adcbags.com/collections/nadine
Wednesday, November 4, 2015
I'm reading Murakami's book called Underground.
Its basically a collection of first person eyewitnesses and survivor's accounts of the Tokyo gas attack in 1995. I've never really thought much about it but its actually very scary because I take the train everyday. How these men carried out these attacks were so subtle and people didn't notice anything until it was too late. Like some of them would say everyone was just rushing to get to work, even when they noticed "strange liquid" on the floor, everyone just continued minding their own business, just thinking about getting to work on time and about the work that awaits them at the office.
"When I was out infront of Kodemmacho station, certainly that one block was in an abnormal state, people were dropping onto the ground like flies, but all around us the world carried on the same as ever. Cars were going by. Thinking back over it now, it was eerie. The contrast was just so weird. But on television they only showed the abnormal part, very different from the actually impression. It just made me realize all the more how frightening television is." - Masanori Okuyama, survivor.
Things I want to further study on:
1) By Stander effect
3) Air flows in trains